hush and listen: I hate me!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

I hate me!

What time did I post last? It was definately within the hour & I was very happy. So why am I crying right now? I am a GAY ASS. & I'm really confused about things.. I think too much about things. I suck. Shut me up.

EDIT:

I just have so many things I want to say and I can't. And I get wicked emotional because of it. And then I give people attitudes and I try to push people away from me. I am fucking retarded and I'm so sick of how I act.

I love you... cant you just listen well to the unspoken words? Sigh.

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- The Bloggy Award

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