Friday, December 29, 2006

Metro Bodies 2006

...sorry guys, i am having a writer's blogger's block, while i am trying to refill my brain ink...

Feast your Eyes on the sizzling edition Metro Magazine’s year-ender double issue (December 2006 - January 2007)

Patrick Garcia

Jason Moss
Graphic artist / painter

Enchong Dee
Philippine swimming team, Bench endorser

John Paul Escobal
Basketball athlete

Doug Kramer
Basketball athlete

Carlos Concepcion

Roman Prudkin

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

We are the Damned

Some say life is only as good as you make it. That, ultimately, you are in control of your own happiness. That every person is unique, and beautiful. However it seems as though the only people who support this theory are the happy, the beautiful, the wealthy, and the loved. For the rest of us life is suffering, a test, and pain. Life is loneliness, rejection, guilt, paranoia, fear, cynicism, and hatred.

We see them every day, walking past them on the street, in the grocery store, the poor, the ugly, the lonely, the insane. They have nothing except for a moment's shameful glance from the people they pass, not even a memory is spared for them, they are forgotten. They have no home, they know no love, they do not exist save when they are seen by the public eye. No one knows where they go, who they are, what they do, and nobody cares. We pity them, but yet we'll have nothing to do with them. They cry alone with not a single soul to comfort them. We are the abandoned, we are God's failed experiments, we are the damned...

Not even the screaming rage that resonates from your lips can drown out the ringing in my ears. And I look at you with eyes that are on fire in a glowing halo of hatred. My voice, always thought to be so quiet, begins to rise in a violent crescendo as I explode in a furry of anger, helplessness, and misery. Kicking around all the shit on the floor, throwing over tables and shelves. I shove you into the TV that hasn't worked in months as I'm met with the stream of obscenities that erupts from your throat in a deafening scream of fear, and anger. Finally we break down, holding each other as we cry on the floor. Laying on top the endless piles of junk that masks a floor that hasn't been seen in years, this mess we call our home, attracting, and infested with insects and rodents that scurry out from under us. We stare at each other in contemptuous disgust. I hate you just as much as you hate me, but we have no one else, we have nowhere to go, and no one to love. We know that we need each other.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Death of An Angel

The darkness grows as your light begins to die, and theres no place left for my anger to hide. Ever word you said, a screaming echo in my mind, amplified by passing time.

Take your fear out on me, turn your back and walk away like nothings left. But when you look back dont expect me to still be there. And dont point a finger at promises or lies when youre the one that walked away. A destroyed heart can no longer be broken so not a tear will be shed for you.

And if you should ever find me again you will only find my back towards you. I have been very generous with forgiveness but now you posses all that Ive had to give, so no guilt will be felt for your long-winded accusations. Yes, there is sympathy underlying the anger but that is a part of me you will no longer see. Im fighting now so you wont tear me down because I know sometime soon youre going to come around but not a single of your words are going to fix the damage of your abandonment.

Youre getting what you wanted as I'm slowly stepping away, so why are you still pushing? And why are you angry that I'm so far away? After all I'd sacrificed, and all that I was to give, you took them very ungratefully, and even my smallest requests were just too much for you to give. So make a wish my beautiful dying angel. Your single wish I will grant you, but dont you dare shed a tear when your thoughtless wish comes true.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Revelry of the Fire

On judgement day
Shall I dance naked through the flames
And my cries of elation shall echo,
Through the desolate nighttime skies

Shall you not join me
My Twilight Star
Join with me in the conflagration
And we shall toast the world goodnight

No longer shall you have to lead me
I only ask of you one thing
When the fires have died
And the screams have silenced

Let me fold my feathered wings around you
Let me protect you from the evil of man
Let me share with you the wonders I have dreamt
Let me show guide your path home

Tuesday, December 12, 2006


Thank you for always making me feel loved.
Waking up each day with the man i love by my side had always been a dream, thank you for making it a reality.
I love you, bibi...
Happy 9th Monthsary!

Monday, December 11, 2006

Arrow Love

They say love has no boundries
But is this fact really true?
Age, race, and sex can be overcome
And yet these factors hold us back

Yet these factors seace to exist
When these two arrow lovers met
Both of them felt their love had a chance
Did it matter that they were the same sex?

Many consider their love and bond unatural
But isn't love still a natural feeling?
Shunned from everyone but themselves
They share a love;
a love misunderstood

Friday, December 08, 2006


Is that you? I'm not seeing so clearly. Your voice is just a muffled avalanche of inarticulate sounds. You hold me up as I reach for the bottle. "Don't you think you've had more than enough?" you asked as you pulled me out of reach. "I'm still conscious aren't I?" I slurred as I pulled from your grip and grabbed up the bottle, spilling just as much down my chin as in my mouth. I'm drowning but I'm happy so save your accusations for when I'm dead.

And please don't think that I no longer care, even as I'm shoving you, even as I'm screaming to tear out your throat. And even as my teeth grind in hatred, you know through my alcohol laden kisses that I still love you. I just wish you would stop staring at me. What are you expecting here? I can't tell you what you want to hear, not even when I'm like this. And how do you think it makes me feel knowing that I could destroy you with one little word? I'm filled with guilt for something I haven't even done yet, and from this guilt anger is born, and in that anger I want to destroy you.

But it doesn't take long for me to forget about all that and my loud laugh and slurred yelling lightens my spirits once again, and announces what a mess I really am. But who am I to care when I'm not even me then anyway? I'm just another spectator. I laugh at my stupidity, and shout obscenities at the mirror. I jump on the bed and hit myself just to prove that I don't feel anything anymore.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

The Infernal lullabies


Can you silence this violent mind
Stained by so many fears and lies
Planted within the darkest soil
Malignant roots empowering me
Dispersing even more evil seeds.


Do not awake but look my child,
Look out into your fantastic sea;
Behind your eyes there lies demise,
Look upon it with all your curiosity.
Heaven has given you a gift of sight
Which hell hath perfected and given to me;
That I may guide you, taint, and blind you
Of the truths hidden within divinity.
Time out of mind you have fallen, my child,
Look far beyond what you can see;
Fallen, abandoned, unloved, and unwanted
Thus you were delivered to me,
That I may guard you, defend, and barb you
From whomsoever believeth in He.
Take comfort in this empty darkness
For you are loved by none save me.

In my words you'll find no truths
No revelations of what's to be;
But in these lies you'll find, my child,
That the world becomes easier to see.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

The G* Spot Weblog Award: Week One

And the nominees for
The G* Spot Weblog Award:
Week One

The Story Blog

1 Body 2 Soul
Bedtime Stories
Behind Lights
Gay Men Rule

Aman Yala

The Photo Blog

a dRAF boiz' Breakfast
Moody's Gorgeous Life
Guccy Gay XTube
Tom @ Paris

Respective links for these blogs are in the sidebar. I encourage you to check them and see for yourself. Why these blogs deserves to be part of The G* Spot Weblog Award.
Cast in your Votes Now! Multiple voting is allowed BUT you will only be allowed to vote once for every week. Poll will close on Sunday, December 10, 2006.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Site Update

Just A Site Info Update Guys...

The G* Spot Weblog Award Will Start on Monday, December 04, 2006. I Have put up the logo where you can click to nominate or read the other details about it!

I have installed a cool software in my blog, BlogSnapper.
So everybody who have a webcam out there! I dare you to take a pose and click that button! Choose your best angle guys! and show the world how cute your are! Check it out on the Side Bar! Please take the shot, will you? Don't Worry, NO RESTRICTION! (wink)

I have also incorporated HaloScan as a commenting tools for my site for those people who are not hosted by blogger, since my blogger comment page is filtered and wont take anonymous user. So you guys wont have no more reason to say something about what you see and read here, ayt?

and oh yeah, let me the first one to say....

Merry Christmas You Guys!!!!