Have you ever felt that no matter what you do and how hard to try to do it for someone - it is simply not enough and everything is always wrong?
Have you ever felt that no matter how much you love someone the way you know how - it is simply unrecognizable for him?
Have you ever felt that no matter how much you give, even your very soul for that special someone - it is simple not enough?
I really feel in a deep shit right now. There is just too much pain in me that i dont know even if i am even worthy of anything at all. The hurt is simply numbing my senses and rapturing my very core that is the only keeping me alive. I feel so damn thinking I am born to have someone and to die with someone. Now, everything is sinking into my head and telling me that maybe it is true that i am condemned to live alone and DIE alone.
I really feel so damn tired and couldnt care no more. The inner battle that I have been keeping within me have unwittingly turned into a war. Engulfing into that state of sheer numbness taking into the deep vortex of disbelief and slowly teaching to shun away from the light once more.
No, i dont want slip away. I want to continue believing. But how can I? How Indeed.