Pillows

Sometimes mountains seem to crumble over night.
And we are often pushed to the limit with no more will to fight.
We cry ourselves to sleep because of the memories of the past.
And its a striking realization when pillows don't hug back.

I've traveled a long hard way on a beaten worn down road.
I've often felt abandoned and betrayed in facing the great unknown.
But I've come a long way from the gray place in which I used to be.
But I've had my own trials and am often brought crashing down to my knees.

I've had my pride torn down and my self-asteem ripped apart.
Can you even find my heart among all of the pieces and broken shards?
This is the place where I admit I am not everything I thought I knew.
So here is the weight on my shoulders that I offer you as truth.

Sometimes songs fade to black and disappear into the night.
With angels weaping at a lost world with their golden wings as they take flight.
Lost in a sea of empty feelings that surround our pasts.
And its a striking realization when pillows don't hug back.

[Un] Loved

I look into you hollow blue eyes
And feel my heart being ripped apart
I know now that I am unloved
Not by not by anyone

I am alone and there is no one here to catch my fall
I hit solid ground, with no support
I am unloved
And left alone

I am a contaminated being
My living creates suffering around others
They always seem to leave me
I am unloved

I am held in your empty arms
Knowing you have no feelings
Knowing that this will lead me no where
Because I am Unloved
Not by you not by anyone

Your kiss upon my mouth holds nothing but disgust
You remember not the feelings I poured into you
But the anger you felt
I through myself upon you
Hoping, praying that you will catch me
But you don’t
Since I am unloved

Alone in this world
No where to turn
Nowhere to run
I am Unloved
Not by you not by anyone



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The post photo is my newest.

The Shadow

I let my breath flow from my still form.
Captured in a carnal embrace,
So cold it runs shivers up my curved spine.
Soft flesh of my chest and arms,
Caressed by the shadows I can not distinguish.
The allure of this discreet devil,
Is that he's a gentleman.
Kisses of frost dip down my neck,
The chilly lick around my navel.
His romance was my delight,
His touch was my freedom.
Arched into his embrace
Shivers racing
Their slender fingers along my sides.
I am slave
To The Shadows Touch.

[Un] Masked

And tell me how you feel when you take off your mask?

Empty?

Alone?

Unloved?

Why?

Cause you wear a mask around them


But when you're alone the masks falls off and you're on your own.

This is to all the people.
To my friends, to my family, to me...
We should stop being puppets in the hands of society.
Just be what you are...

They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
That you take when you want to be real
Flying on planes to exotic locations
Won't teach you
How you really feel
Face up to the fact
That you are who you are
Nothing can change that belief
Just be