Friday, September 08, 2006
Meteor Shower
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Crikey! Here’s to Ya Mate!
I realize the death of Steve Irwin is old news…I’ve been wondering what to say about the whole situation.
To be quite honest, I greatly admired the man. This guy had a set on him.
A big brass set he probably had to keep in a chest locked up somewhere…
He allowed the rest of the world to see dangerous animals up close, from the safety of our homes.
He didn’t send his assistants to tease the animals to react on camera, he jumped in there himself. I watched almost all of his shows and one thing that stood out was that he never told/made an assistant do anything around a dangerous animal that he himself had not or would not do…
The only time I ever questioned his judgement and sanity was when he fed a croc while holding his infant son…and he took a lot of shit for that incident… rightly so…
I won’t dwell on the incident…there are enough people ragging on him for his actions and politics that it makes me just want to sigh. I’ll stick to remembering what the man gave to the world.
He was a conservationist and teacher. I’ve no doubt that he was a wonderful husband and father. I hope I’m alive to see the day his children follow in his footeps, or at least acknowledge to the world his devotion to wildlife conservation and education wasn’t in vain.
To be quite honest, I greatly admired the man. This guy had a set on him.
A big brass set he probably had to keep in a chest locked up somewhere…
He allowed the rest of the world to see dangerous animals up close, from the safety of our homes.
He didn’t send his assistants to tease the animals to react on camera, he jumped in there himself. I watched almost all of his shows and one thing that stood out was that he never told/made an assistant do anything around a dangerous animal that he himself had not or would not do…
The only time I ever questioned his judgement and sanity was when he fed a croc while holding his infant son…and he took a lot of shit for that incident… rightly so…
I won’t dwell on the incident…there are enough people ragging on him for his actions and politics that it makes me just want to sigh. I’ll stick to remembering what the man gave to the world.
He was a conservationist and teacher. I’ve no doubt that he was a wonderful husband and father. I hope I’m alive to see the day his children follow in his footeps, or at least acknowledge to the world his devotion to wildlife conservation and education wasn’t in vain.
The French Connection
My apologies to my other readers, here is the translation of what me and steven are talking about:
Steven:
j'ai vu tes messages. merci beaucoup! pardon, mais je n'ai pas jusqu'ici blogoliste maintenant. hablas español tambien?
I saw your messages. thank-you a lot! pardon, but I have not so far blogoliste now. Do you speak spanish good?
étudier-tu français aussi, comme moi? parce que je n'ai pas d'argent, j'ai étudier français seul tout (il y a 3 mois). est-ce qui? = who is this?
Do you study french as well, like me? I dont have the money so I am self studying (for 3 months now) est-ce qui? = who is this? (we are comparing each other note here, was asking him on his blog, because the translation of est-ce qui? is this that? he said it can also be translatedas who is this?, gulo ng french noh? lolz)
le français
the french
______________________________
But of course, di ako nagpatalo, lolz
khalel:
Oui, je parle aussi l'espagnol et non, j'ai appris français tout seul aussi. Bien que je Dois Reconnaître que je ne suis pas éloquent dans parler la langue mais j'essaie. Acclamations ! Le séjour A Béni et Libère, monsieur steven.
Yes, I also speak spanish too and no, I learned French all alone also. Although I must admit that I am not eloquent in speaking the language but I am trying. Cheers! stay Blessed and free, sir steven.
Vous remercier droppin › par à mon site, monsieur.
Thank you for droppin by at my site, sir.
¡Sí, hablo español también! (spanish)
Yes, I speak spanish as well.
_______________________
EXPERTS pakicheck ang mga translation ko ha. lolz.
That was fun!
Steven:
j'ai vu tes messages. merci beaucoup! pardon, mais je n'ai pas jusqu'ici blogoliste maintenant
I saw your messages. thank-you a lot! pardon, but I have not so far blogoliste now. Do you speak spanish good?
étudier-tu français aussi, comme moi? parce que je n'ai pas d'argent, j'ai étudier français seul tout (il y a 3 mois). est-ce qui? = who is this?
Do you study french as well, like me? I dont have the money so I am self studying (for 3 months now) est-ce qui? = who is this? (we are comparing each other note here, was asking him on his blog, because the translation of est-ce qui? is this that? he said it can also be translatedas who is this?, gulo ng french noh? lolz)
le français
the french
______________________________
But of course, di ako nagpatalo, lolz
khalel:
Oui, je parle aussi l'espagnol et non, j'ai appris français tout seul aussi. Bien que je Dois Reconnaître que je ne suis pas éloquent dans parler la langue mais j'essaie. Acclamations ! Le séjour A Béni et Libère, monsieur steven.
Yes, I also speak spanish too and no, I learned French all alone also. Although I must admit that I am not eloquent in speaking the language but I am trying. Cheers! stay Blessed and free, sir steven.
Vous remercier droppin › par à mon site, monsieur.
Thank you for droppin by at my site, sir.
¡Sí, hablo español también! (spanish)
Yes, I speak spanish as well.
_______________________
EXPERTS pakicheck ang mga translation ko ha. lolz.
That was fun!
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
I Have Sinned!
| Greed: | Medium | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Low | |
| Sloth: | Medium | |
| Envy: | Medium | |
| Lust: | Very High | |
| Pride: | Medium |
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
________________
LUST very high? Hmmm... lolz.
On Loving (The Third Repost)
On Loving is one of my article that had good reviews here and abroad. I even remember receiving an email as far as italy, london and moscow. So for the third time I am republishing this article, this time on its french and spanish translation. (I just hope I got it translated right. EXPERTS help me on this, your comments will valuable)
On Loving...
"Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to
recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.
"Parfois, dans nos efforts implacables pour trouver la personne nous aimons nous ne reconnaissons pas et apprécier les gens qui nous aiment. Nous manquons hors sur tant de choses belles et simplement parce que nous nous permettons à a été a slaved par nos propres inquiétudes égoïstes. Aller pour l'homme d'actions et pas pour l'homme de mots pour trouvera vous récompensant le bonheur pas avec l'homme vous aimez mais l'homme qui aime vous plus.le les meilleurs amants est ceux qui sont capable d'aimer de loin, loin assez permettre à l'autre personne pour grandir, mais ne jamais aussi loin sentir l'amour profond dans votre est.
"A veces, en nuestros esfuerzos implacables encontrar a la persona que adoramos fallamos de reconocer y apreciar a las personas que nos adoran. Perdemos fuera en tantas cosas hermosas y simplemente porque nosotros nos permitimos a fue esclavizado por nuestro propio egoísta concierne. Vaya para el hombre de actos y no para el hombre de palabras para usted encontrará la felicidad remuneradora no con el hombre usted adora pero el hombre que adora usted más.el mejores amantes es los que son capaces de adorar de lejos, lejos suficiente en permitir a la otra persona para crecer, pero nunca sentirse demasiado lejos el amor profundo dentro de su es.
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith,and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.
Pour le lâcher ne signifie pas que vous devez arrêter d'aimer, il signifie seulement que vous permettez à cette personne pour trouver son propre bonheur sans prévoit qu'il soit revenu. Laisser va est ne réglant pas juste l'autre personne libère, mais il vous règle aussi libère de toute amertume, de l'haine, et de la colère qui garde dans votre coeur. Ne pas laisser l'amertume rare loin votre force et affaiblir votre foi, et ne jamais permettre à la douleur pour vous décourager, mais plutôt vous permettre de grandir avec la sagesse dans le maintien il.
Para soltar alguien no significa que usted tiene que parar adorar, sólo significa que usted permite esa persona para encontrar su propia felicidad sin esperarlo regresar. Soltando no pone apenas a la otra persona liberta, pero también lo pone liberta de toda amargura, del odio, y de la cólera que mantiene en el corazón. No permita la amargura rara lejos su fuerza y debilite su fe, y nunca permita el dolor para desanimarle, sino permitir que usted crecer con la sabiduría en cojinete lo.
You may found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.
Vous pouvez la paix trouvée dans l'aimant juste ne prévoyant pas de loin n'importe quoi dans le retour. Mais faire attention, pour peut ceci soutenir la vie mais ne peut jamais donner assez peut loger pour nous grandir. Nous pouvons tout survit avec les juste belles mémoires du passé mais de vraie paix et le bonheur est venu seulement avec ouvre l'acceptation de quelle réalité est aujourd'hui.là-bas vient un temps dans nos vies quand nous risquons sur quelqu'un si agréable et bel et nous nous trouvons juste obtenant s'intensément attiré à cette personne. Cette sensation est devenue bientôt une partie de nos vies de tous les jours et consomme finalement nos pensées et nos actions. La partie triste de c'est quand nous commencons à rendre compte que cette personne ne se sent rien plus pour nous que juste une amitié.
Usted puede encontró que la paz a adorar apenas alguien de lejos no esperando nada en regreso. Pero tiene cuidado, para esto puede sostener la vida pero nunca puede dar suficiente espacio para nosotros crecer. Todos podemos sobrevivir con memorias apenas hermosas del pasado pero la paz y la felicidad verdaderas vienen sólo con aceptación abierta de qué realidad es hoy.allí
viene un tiempo en nuestro vive cuando acaecemos sobre alguien tan agradable y hermoso y nosotros acabamos de encontrar que nosotros mismos obteniendo tan intensamente atraído a esa persona. Este sentimiento pronto llega a ser una parte de nuestro diario vive y consume finalmente nuestros pensamientos y las acciones. La parte triste de ello es cuando comenzamos a darse cuenta de que esta persona no se siente nada más para nosotros que apenas una amistad.
We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Nous commençons notre tentative désespérée pour obtenir remarqué et est plus près mais dans la fin nos efforts sont toujours unrewarded et nous finissons par nous plaignons. Vous ne devez pas l'oublier vous aimez. Que vous avez besoin d'apprendre sera obligé à accepter le verdict de réalité sans est amer ou désolé pour vous. Me croire, vous seriez donner mieux cette dédicace et cet amour à quelqu'un méritant plus. Ne pas laisser votre coeur a couru votre vie, être raisonnable et laisser votre esprit parle pour lui-même. Ecouter non seulement à vos sensations mais raisonner aussi.
Empezamos nuestra tentativa desesperada a obtener advertido y está más cerca pero al fin nuestros esfuerzos son todavía unrewarded y acabamos por es arrepentido para nosotros mismos. Usted no tiene que olvidarse alguien usted adora. Qué usted necesita aprender cómo deberá aceptar que el juicio de la realidad sin es amargo o arrepentido para usted mismo. Créame, usted andaría mejor le dando esa dedicación y el amor a alguien más mereciendo. No permita que el corazón corra su vida, sea sensato y permita que su mente habla para él mismo. Escuche no sólo sus sentimientos pero para razonar también.
Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
Toujours se rappeler que si vous le perdez aujourd'hui, il signifie que quelqu'un mieux vient demain : Si vous perdez l'amour qui ne signifie pas que vous ayez échoué dans l'amour. Le cri, si vous devez, mais le faire sûr que les déchirures enlèvent la blessure et l'amertume que le passé est parti avec vous. Lâcher hier et l'amour trouvera sa façon de retour à vous. Et quand il fait, prie que ce peut être l'amour qui restera et durera une vie.
Siempre recuerde que si usted pierde alguien hoy, significa que alguien viene mejor mañana: Si usted pierde el amor que no significa que usted falló en el amor. El grito, si usted tiene a, pero lo hace seguro que las lágrimas quitan la herida y la amargura que el pasado ha dejado con usted. Suelte ayer y adore llegará sin ayuda espalda a usted. Y cuando hace, ore que pueda ser el amor que permanecerá y durará una vida.
There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Il y a deux façons pour vivre votre vie. L'un est comme si rien n'est un miracle L'autre est comme si tout est un miracle."
Hay dos maneras de vivir su vida. Uno es como si nada es un milagro El otro es como si todo es un milagro."
On Loving...
"Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to
recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.
"Parfois, dans nos efforts implacables pour trouver la personne nous aimons nous ne reconnaissons pas et apprécier les gens qui nous aiment. Nous manquons hors sur tant de choses belles et simplement parce que nous nous permettons à a été a slaved par nos propres inquiétudes égoïstes. Aller pour l'homme d'actions et pas pour l'homme de mots pour trouvera vous récompensant le bonheur pas avec l'homme vous aimez mais l'homme qui aime vous plus.le les meilleurs amants est ceux qui sont capable d'aimer de loin, loin assez permettre à l'autre personne pour grandir, mais ne jamais aussi loin sentir l'amour profond dans votre est.
"A veces, en nuestros esfuerzos implacables encontrar a la persona que adoramos fallamos de reconocer y apreciar a las personas que nos adoran. Perdemos fuera en tantas cosas hermosas y simplemente porque nosotros nos permitimos a fue esclavizado por nuestro propio egoísta concierne. Vaya para el hombre de actos y no para el hombre de palabras para usted encontrará la felicidad remuneradora no con el hombre usted adora pero el hombre que adora usted más.el mejores amantes es los que son capaces de adorar de lejos, lejos suficiente en permitir a la otra persona para crecer, pero nunca sentirse demasiado lejos el amor profundo dentro de su es.
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith,and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.
Pour le lâcher ne signifie pas que vous devez arrêter d'aimer, il signifie seulement que vous permettez à cette personne pour trouver son propre bonheur sans prévoit qu'il soit revenu. Laisser va est ne réglant pas juste l'autre personne libère, mais il vous règle aussi libère de toute amertume, de l'haine, et de la colère qui garde dans votre coeur. Ne pas laisser l'amertume rare loin votre force et affaiblir votre foi, et ne jamais permettre à la douleur pour vous décourager, mais plutôt vous permettre de grandir avec la sagesse dans le maintien il.
Para soltar alguien no significa que usted tiene que parar adorar, sólo significa que usted permite esa persona para encontrar su propia felicidad sin esperarlo regresar. Soltando no pone apenas a la otra persona liberta, pero también lo pone liberta de toda amargura, del odio, y de la cólera que mantiene en el corazón. No permita la amargura rara lejos su fuerza y debilite su fe, y nunca permita el dolor para desanimarle, sino permitir que usted crecer con la sabiduría en cojinete lo.
You may found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.
Vous pouvez la paix trouvée dans l'aimant juste ne prévoyant pas de loin n'importe quoi dans le retour. Mais faire attention, pour peut ceci soutenir la vie mais ne peut jamais donner assez peut loger pour nous grandir. Nous pouvons tout survit avec les juste belles mémoires du passé mais de vraie paix et le bonheur est venu seulement avec ouvre l'acceptation de quelle réalité est aujourd'hui.là-bas vient un temps dans nos vies quand nous risquons sur quelqu'un si agréable et bel et nous nous trouvons juste obtenant s'intensément attiré à cette personne. Cette sensation est devenue bientôt une partie de nos vies de tous les jours et consomme finalement nos pensées et nos actions. La partie triste de c'est quand nous commencons à rendre compte que cette personne ne se sent rien plus pour nous que juste une amitié.
Usted puede encontró que la paz a adorar apenas alguien de lejos no esperando nada en regreso. Pero tiene cuidado, para esto puede sostener la vida pero nunca puede dar suficiente espacio para nosotros crecer. Todos podemos sobrevivir con memorias apenas hermosas del pasado pero la paz y la felicidad verdaderas vienen sólo con aceptación abierta de qué realidad es hoy.allí
viene un tiempo en nuestro vive cuando acaecemos sobre alguien tan agradable y hermoso y nosotros acabamos de encontrar que nosotros mismos obteniendo tan intensamente atraído a esa persona. Este sentimiento pronto llega a ser una parte de nuestro diario vive y consume finalmente nuestros pensamientos y las acciones. La parte triste de ello es cuando comenzamos a darse cuenta de que esta persona no se siente nada más para nosotros que apenas una amistad.
We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Nous commençons notre tentative désespérée pour obtenir remarqué et est plus près mais dans la fin nos efforts sont toujours unrewarded et nous finissons par nous plaignons. Vous ne devez pas l'oublier vous aimez. Que vous avez besoin d'apprendre sera obligé à accepter le verdict de réalité sans est amer ou désolé pour vous. Me croire, vous seriez donner mieux cette dédicace et cet amour à quelqu'un méritant plus. Ne pas laisser votre coeur a couru votre vie, être raisonnable et laisser votre esprit parle pour lui-même. Ecouter non seulement à vos sensations mais raisonner aussi.
Empezamos nuestra tentativa desesperada a obtener advertido y está más cerca pero al fin nuestros esfuerzos son todavía unrewarded y acabamos por es arrepentido para nosotros mismos. Usted no tiene que olvidarse alguien usted adora. Qué usted necesita aprender cómo deberá aceptar que el juicio de la realidad sin es amargo o arrepentido para usted mismo. Créame, usted andaría mejor le dando esa dedicación y el amor a alguien más mereciendo. No permita que el corazón corra su vida, sea sensato y permita que su mente habla para él mismo. Escuche no sólo sus sentimientos pero para razonar también.
Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
Toujours se rappeler que si vous le perdez aujourd'hui, il signifie que quelqu'un mieux vient demain : Si vous perdez l'amour qui ne signifie pas que vous ayez échoué dans l'amour. Le cri, si vous devez, mais le faire sûr que les déchirures enlèvent la blessure et l'amertume que le passé est parti avec vous. Lâcher hier et l'amour trouvera sa façon de retour à vous. Et quand il fait, prie que ce peut être l'amour qui restera et durera une vie.
Siempre recuerde que si usted pierde alguien hoy, significa que alguien viene mejor mañana: Si usted pierde el amor que no significa que usted falló en el amor. El grito, si usted tiene a, pero lo hace seguro que las lágrimas quitan la herida y la amargura que el pasado ha dejado con usted. Suelte ayer y adore llegará sin ayuda espalda a usted. Y cuando hace, ore que pueda ser el amor que permanecerá y durará una vida.
There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Il y a deux façons pour vivre votre vie. L'un est comme si rien n'est un miracle L'autre est comme si tout est un miracle."
Hay dos maneras de vivir su vida. Uno es como si nada es un milagro El otro es como si todo es un milagro."
Monday, September 04, 2006
I will Get you Bitch! Go Hide!
Early this morning as I log in to check on my email, I was dishearten to know that yahoo is rejecting my password, so I go check my alternate email, and found out that my email has been hacked by someone earlier this morning at 4:23 AM to be exact as per the notification issued by the yahoo administrator. I am trying to get access but I consistently being denied still, for I need to verify even the security image and other information. The BITCH who hacked my email knows his/her internet access too perfect I may say.
BUT HEAR ME, YOU BITCH! I WILL GET YOU, AND WHEN I DO, PRAY THAT I WILL MERCY TO GIVE YOU A SWIFT EXECUTION!!!! I WILL HAUNT AND HUNT YOU DOWN!!! YOU BITCH MESS WITH THE WRONG GUY!!!! GO HIDE!
BUT HEAR ME, YOU BITCH! I WILL GET YOU, AND WHEN I DO, PRAY THAT I WILL MERCY TO GIVE YOU A SWIFT EXECUTION!!!! I WILL HAUNT AND HUNT YOU DOWN!!! YOU BITCH MESS WITH THE WRONG GUY!!!! GO HIDE!
Friday, September 01, 2006
Diskriminasyon!
A selection from Stacyann Chin's speech at the Opening Ceremonies of the Gay Games (this was the part I love so much):
I don’t know why
but the term lesbian just seems so
confrontational to me
why can’t you people just say you date
other people?
Again I say nothing
tongue and courage tied with fear
I am at once livid
ashamed and paralyzed
by the neo-conservatism
breeding malicious amongst us
Gay
Lesbian
Bisexual
Transgender
Ally
Questioning
Two spirit
Non-gender conforming—every year we add a new letter
our community is happily expanding beyond the scope
of the dream stonewall sparked within us
yet everyday
I become more afraid to say black
or lesbian
or woman—everyday
under the pretense of unity I swallow something I should have said
about the epidemic of AIDS in Africa
or the violence against teenage-girls in East New York
or the mortality rate of young boys on the south-side of Chicago
even in friendly conversation
I get the bell hooks-ian urge
to kill mother-fuckers who say stupid shit to me
all day
bitter branches of things I cannot say out loud
sprout deviant from my neck
fuck you-you-fucking-racist-sexist-turd
fuck you for wanting to talk about homophobia
while you exploit the desperation of undocumented immigrants
to clean your hallways
bathe your children and cook your dinner
for less than you and I spend on our tax deductible lunch!
I want to scream
all oppression is connected you dick!
I don’t know why
but the term lesbian just seems so
confrontational to me
why can’t you people just say you date
other people?
Again I say nothing
tongue and courage tied with fear
I am at once livid
ashamed and paralyzed
by the neo-conservatism
breeding malicious amongst us
Gay
Lesbian
Bisexual
Transgender
Ally
Questioning
Two spirit
Non-gender conforming—every year we add a new letter
our community is happily expanding beyond the scope
of the dream stonewall sparked within us
yet everyday
I become more afraid to say black
or lesbian
or woman—everyday
under the pretense of unity I swallow something I should have said
about the epidemic of AIDS in Africa
or the violence against teenage-girls in East New York
or the mortality rate of young boys on the south-side of Chicago
even in friendly conversation
I get the bell hooks-ian urge
to kill mother-fuckers who say stupid shit to me
all day
bitter branches of things I cannot say out loud
sprout deviant from my neck
fuck you-you-fucking-racist-sexist-turd
fuck you for wanting to talk about homophobia
while you exploit the desperation of undocumented immigrants
to clean your hallways
bathe your children and cook your dinner
for less than you and I spend on our tax deductible lunch!
I want to scream
all oppression is connected you dick!
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Religious Freedom for SAME SEX Marriage?
Tulad ng dati pagkatapos ng akin "midnight supper" (yup, i always take my supper that late because I usually get out of work by eleven pm na) I tried to watch the late news and the documentary shows that follows it sa mga local channel.
Last night, PROBE TEAM had the issue of the Jehovah's witnesses members who got
blessing from the Spiritual Leader in terms of their "matrimonial status." The two had been married to other people in their past before they met each other in 1979 (I supposed both of them are already seperated from their spouses then). Just recently, the court accredit their "matrimonial union" as vested by their religion into something that is legal.
The decision of the court earn some raised eyebrows from different people of the society (Naku sa pinas pa na nagpapakonserbatibong ipokrito) most especially sa Catholic Church (bago mag isip, katoliko po ako). Calling the desisyon, blasphemous in its very essence. It is destroying daw the core and foundation of "marriage" dahil nga kasal na sa iba and parehong sangkot.
But the court ruled that the state cannot touch the religious freedom bestowed in every man. So thats it!
I think a month ago, Jed and I were arguing about this issue and its legality. Knowing jed, sa kanyang pagiging mainitin ang ulo. I told him that the decision of the court can be precedent for same sex marriage., and both of us debated. Both of us concentrated lang on the definition of marriage as stipulated in the Constitution.
Personally, I would want to get married, siempre iba pa rin yung feeling ng kinasal ka di ba? And the ecumenical church I am involve with, "unites" same sex by the marital union. So I must admit I got so excited.
Really hope it is that easy. I am looking deeper on the legelity of this court decision. Intriguing really...
ATTENTION: JED me bagong issue na naman tayong pagdedebatihan! lolz!
Last night, PROBE TEAM had the issue of the Jehovah's witnesses members who got
blessing from the Spiritual Leader in terms of their "matrimonial status." The two had been married to other people in their past before they met each other in 1979 (I supposed both of them are already seperated from their spouses then). Just recently, the court accredit their "matrimonial union" as vested by their religion into something that is legal. The decision of the court earn some raised eyebrows from different people of the society (Naku sa pinas pa na nagpapakonserbatibong ipokrito) most especially sa Catholic Church (bago mag isip, katoliko po ako). Calling the desisyon, blasphemous in its very essence. It is destroying daw the core and foundation of "marriage" dahil nga kasal na sa iba and parehong sangkot.
But the court ruled that the state cannot touch the religious freedom bestowed in every man. So thats it!
I think a month ago, Jed and I were arguing about this issue and its legality. Knowing jed, sa kanyang pagiging mainitin ang ulo. I told him that the decision of the court can be precedent for same sex marriage., and both of us debated. Both of us concentrated lang on the definition of marriage as stipulated in the Constitution.
Personally, I would want to get married, siempre iba pa rin yung feeling ng kinasal ka di ba? And the ecumenical church I am involve with, "unites" same sex by the marital union. So I must admit I got so excited.
Really hope it is that easy. I am looking deeper on the legelity of this court decision. Intriguing really...
ATTENTION: JED me bagong issue na naman tayong pagdedebatihan! lolz!
On Simple Life
( in no particular order actually )
10. Cuddling my pillow while watching dvd's, Preferably with someone special but a solo act is acceptable. (Dahil madalas naman tulugan ako ni Mantra or ako ang maunang matulog! lolz)
9. Lazing away a Sunday afternoon on my daybed doing absolutely nothing flipping through my dvd collection and dreaming impossible dreams. This I have been and took a sabbathical leave from MCC for the month of August, dont get me wrong, I still attend church hours, on a much nearer place close to home.
8. Listening to my favorite records.
7. The sweet thrill of holding a new book in my hands. The sheer indescribable scent of freshly minted pages and the anticipation of opening new unimaginable vistas.
6. Taking a road trip with someone you love - having your hands inadvertently touch and link together. (Hay, one day Mantra.)
5. Realizing that you're off from work at a surprisingly early hour! Nothing like receiving sudden unlooked-for blessings. Imagine what experiences you can have as you sneak your way out of the office! The people! The sights! The tastes of MASILOG! :) Yeah, I am single-minded. (lolz)
4. Finding that perfect purchase for a bargain basement price of the ukay landia. The perfect fit of the perfect jeans. The beautiful cut of that lagapayo shirt. The impossibly suitable addition to your home decor whether it's that maximalist bling bling.
3. Late night chats with a best friend, whether dissing the latest heartthrobs they have in line or discussing the latest scandalous on-dit at work.
2. kissing my Baby.
1. Waking up early in the morning to watch the man I love sleeping next to me.
Reading this, I just realized that I am kinda a sap :) A somewhat skanky sap but still, pretty much a sap.
Religious Conversion
Sometime late last night - in between my wish and enough sleep to get by another day and my troubled mind about the bite mark at mantra (grr!), I got into thinking about MCC (the Metropolitan Community Church - Philippines,) an ecumenical congregation which I am part of, and the way we can comeup with a fullproof way of bringing back the lost sheep to the hallowed halls of the church. Seriously, whether others will admit it or not, the more people attending the congregatiopn the more impact it can create for the Philippine LGBT Community. Seriously doubt there's actually dwindling church attendance as the hysterical reports say but I don't see how the holy fathers could turn away a few other lost souls to their congregation. This is when me and me talk.
Somehow or rather, innocent talk about conversions and good christian boys started straying into baptismal fonts and then into far more dangerous territory - as we started comparing the relative merits of having sexy dark priests serve communion in wet white thongs - instead of the boring cassock. Although daughter of Christ, me faithfully decried such a scandalous notion, I found myself thinking otherwise. Surely handing out white thongs amongst the well-endowed amongst the budding "clergy" would help increase attendance by a thousand-fold - especially with those wicked unrepenting "sodomites" who'd no doubt be scrambling to be admitted into the House of God.
And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from evil!
Puerile and dirrrty... I know. The blasphemous thoughts that get into my head when I'm struggling to keep awake at 3 in the morning and pretending to be sleep. Certainly idle mind, the Devil's workshop and all that.
Somehow or rather, innocent talk about conversions and good christian boys started straying into baptismal fonts and then into far more dangerous territory - as we started comparing the relative merits of having sexy dark priests serve communion in wet white thongs - instead of the boring cassock. Although daughter of Christ, me faithfully decried such a scandalous notion, I found myself thinking otherwise. Surely handing out white thongs amongst the well-endowed amongst the budding "clergy" would help increase attendance by a thousand-fold - especially with those wicked unrepenting "sodomites" who'd no doubt be scrambling to be admitted into the House of God.
But deliver us from evil!
Puerile and dirrrty... I know. The blasphemous thoughts that get into my head when I'm struggling to keep awake at 3 in the morning and pretending to be sleep. Certainly idle mind, the Devil's workshop and all that.
Fetuccini Carbonara (Yum!)
Ingredients
1 lbs thick-sliced bacon, diced
1 lbs fettuccini noodles
3 pc large eggs
1/3 cup chopped parsley
1 tbsp dried Italian herbs/seasoning
1 cup grated Parmesan cheese
1 tsp fresh ground pepper
Method
1. Saute the bacon in a small skillet until crisp. 2. Remove with a slotted spoon and drain well on a paper towel. 3. Cook fettuccini noodles according to package instruction until firm and tender. 4. Meanwhile, beat the eggs thoroughly in a large bowl suitable for serving. 5. Have the cooked bacon and the chopped parsley ready at hand. 6. When the pasta is done, drain it immediately in a colander, and pour into the bowl of eggs and immediately begin tossing it. 7. As the strands of pasta become coated with the beaten eggs, their heat will cook the eggs. 8. Sprinkle the bacon, Italian seasoning and parsley on, and serve immediately. 9. Top with lots of freshly grated parmesan cheese and freshly ground black pepper. Serves 4.
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I miss cooking this dish. The last time I cook ata fetuccini for someone was with my last girlfriend pa! (Take note ha, girls pa ang trip ko nun! lolz) I hope I can find time to cook one this weekend!
1 lbs thick-sliced bacon, diced
1 lbs fettuccini noodles
3 pc large eggs
1/3 cup chopped parsley
1 tbsp dried Italian herbs/seasoning
1 cup grated Parmesan cheese
1 tsp fresh ground pepper
Method
1. Saute the bacon in a small skillet until crisp. 2. Remove with a slotted spoon and drain well on a paper towel. 3. Cook fettuccini noodles according to package instruction until firm and tender. 4. Meanwhile, beat the eggs thoroughly in a large bowl suitable for serving. 5. Have the cooked bacon and the chopped parsley ready at hand. 6. When the pasta is done, drain it immediately in a colander, and pour into the bowl of eggs and immediately begin tossing it. 7. As the strands of pasta become coated with the beaten eggs, their heat will cook the eggs. 8. Sprinkle the bacon, Italian seasoning and parsley on, and serve immediately. 9. Top with lots of freshly grated parmesan cheese and freshly ground black pepper. Serves 4.
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I miss cooking this dish. The last time I cook ata fetuccini for someone was with my last girlfriend pa! (Take note ha, girls pa ang trip ko nun! lolz) I hope I can find time to cook one this weekend!
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Running On Empty
He's running on empty.
This man of four score years and ten,
doesn't know where
he doesn't know when
the call will come
to summon him home.
At night he no long kneels to pray
for the Lord to spare him
one more day
He doesn't care
he sits with the others
who sit in chairs
and blankly he stares
at the flickering window
onto other peoples' worlds.
The world he knew
has drifted away
consumed in the smoke
of cigarettes and fires.
And all the ones he loved
are gone
and there's nothing left
but he lingers on
suffering the half life
of the unknowing dead.
Nothing intrudes,
nothing involves.
All the care from the bleeding hearts
is for others,
for the dying children
born of dying mothers
and all the lives that are blown away
and no one came to see him today.
And no one cares
that he once had a life
two strong sons
a daughter
a wife.
No one cares
that his wife is dead
that there's no loving hand
to soothe his fears
that no one comes to
dry his tears.
And it doesn't matter
that he sleeps alone
when he sleeps at all,
that his mottled hands grip
an icy sheet
and he's lost all feeling
in his frozen feet.
And he's running on empty
again.
This man of four score years and ten,
doesn't know where
he doesn't know when
the call will come
to summon him home.
At night he no long kneels to pray
for the Lord to spare him
one more day
He doesn't care
he sits with the others
who sit in chairs
and blankly he stares
at the flickering window
onto other peoples' worlds.
The world he knew
has drifted away
consumed in the smoke
of cigarettes and fires.
And all the ones he loved
are gone
and there's nothing left
but he lingers on
suffering the half life
of the unknowing dead.
Nothing intrudes,
nothing involves.
All the care from the bleeding hearts
is for others,
for the dying children
born of dying mothers
and all the lives that are blown away
and no one came to see him today.
And no one cares
that he once had a life
two strong sons
a daughter
a wife.
No one cares
that his wife is dead
that there's no loving hand
to soothe his fears
that no one comes to
dry his tears.
And it doesn't matter
that he sleeps alone
when he sleeps at all,
that his mottled hands grip
an icy sheet
and he's lost all feeling
in his frozen feet.
And he's running on empty
again.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Batong Buhay
Matagal na akong di umiiyak. Ewan ko ba sa dami siguro ng dinaan ko sa buhay kasama ang mga sangkap ng pamilya, pakikipag kaibigan at pakikipagrelasyon sa iba't ibang tao. Totoo nga siguro ang sabi nila - BATO AT MANHID NA AKO SA GULO AT IKOT NG MUNDO.
Isang araw nakatihan kong regaluhan ang sarili ko ng mga tuta. OO, tuta, di ko alam siguro lumaki ako sa pamilya na mahilig sa aso at ilang aso na rin nga ba ang inalagaan ko. So, two months before my birthday, I raised afund to buy me some puppies - A Spaniel, Chow chow and a shih tzu. Breeders would know di biro ang halaga ng mga asong ito. Dont get me wrong di ako yung tipo ng maluhong tao, pero pag me project talaga na gustong pag ipunan I can make sacrifices. So, I did raised the needed fund. I got a male Black Spaniel First, followed by a chow chow after a month and A shih twu after a week. That is how determined I was to get the puppies I have always dreamed ever since I was a child ata. Wala lang I really like furry pups.
I did all the necesarry basic things have them regularly check by vet, buy them the most expensive utilities and foods I could find, gave them their daily dose of vitamins etc etc etc.
Then Bang! One morning, AKI the chow chow was feeling a little bit down, bigla siyang naging matamlay, so as any could father would do, I had him check up sa doctor niya, but despite rigorous medication and all... AKI died, and she died on my arms. Hearing her cry really breaks my heart. I was really hysterical when she died, well can I say, I have treated them like my own children, at para talag akong namatayan ng anak that time.
But it is not the end of it, sumunod sa kanya si HARU (shih tzu), same case and like AKI she did not survive either despite her hospital confinement sa isa sa mga high tech vet clinic dito sa manila. Same tears flooded my tears, my two daughters died on me, five days before my actual birthday.
Fate has really somethintg to teach, I guess, because right after HARU, sumonod na ng pananamlay si SAATCHI (Spaniel). Amongst the three, SAATCHI is special. Siya yung pinakamalambing sa tatlo, he even sleeps with me sa bed.
Like my two daughters, SAATCHI suffer the same fate, their doctors call PARVO the culprit. That despite blood transfusion, SAATCHI did not survive it either. He was confined the day of birthday and died the following day.
It breaks me so hard that I would want to knock everybody down. But hey, It did taught me one thing, di ako manhid tulad ng mga madalas iparatang sa akin. Di ako manhid. Bato nga ako, batong buhay.
Isang araw nakatihan kong regaluhan ang sarili ko ng mga tuta. OO, tuta, di ko alam siguro lumaki ako sa pamilya na mahilig sa aso at ilang aso na rin nga ba ang inalagaan ko. So, two months before my birthday, I raised afund to buy me some puppies - A Spaniel, Chow chow and a shih tzu. Breeders would know di biro ang halaga ng mga asong ito. Dont get me wrong di ako yung tipo ng maluhong tao, pero pag me project talaga na gustong pag ipunan I can make sacrifices. So, I did raised the needed fund. I got a male Black Spaniel First, followed by a chow chow after a month and A shih twu after a week. That is how determined I was to get the puppies I have always dreamed ever since I was a child ata. Wala lang I really like furry pups.
I did all the necesarry basic things have them regularly check by vet, buy them the most expensive utilities and foods I could find, gave them their daily dose of vitamins etc etc etc.
Then Bang! One morning, AKI the chow chow was feeling a little bit down, bigla siyang naging matamlay, so as any could father would do, I had him check up sa doctor niya, but despite rigorous medication and all... AKI died, and she died on my arms. Hearing her cry really breaks my heart. I was really hysterical when she died, well can I say, I have treated them like my own children, at para talag akong namatayan ng anak that time.
But it is not the end of it, sumunod sa kanya si HARU (shih tzu), same case and like AKI she did not survive either despite her hospital confinement sa isa sa mga high tech vet clinic dito sa manila. Same tears flooded my tears, my two daughters died on me, five days before my actual birthday.
Fate has really somethintg to teach, I guess, because right after HARU, sumonod na ng pananamlay si SAATCHI (Spaniel). Amongst the three, SAATCHI is special. Siya yung pinakamalambing sa tatlo, he even sleeps with me sa bed.
Like my two daughters, SAATCHI suffer the same fate, their doctors call PARVO the culprit. That despite blood transfusion, SAATCHI did not survive it either. He was confined the day of birthday and died the following day.
It breaks me so hard that I would want to knock everybody down. But hey, It did taught me one thing, di ako manhid tulad ng mga madalas iparatang sa akin. Di ako manhid. Bato nga ako, batong buhay.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Misteryo
Sa gitna ng mga pag aalinglangan,
Ng mga pangakong abot sukdulan,
Damhin mo sa Gitna ng bawat sigalot
At pag aalimpuyong kasukalan
Ang mga pagsintang payak at bayad.
Ang mga luha ko’y tutulo para sa iyo,
Puso ko’y tatagusan ng patay na dugo,
Puspos man ng pighati at dusta
Aawit pa rin ng isang tunay na pagsinta.
Bigyan kirot mo man ang mga dalangin,
Tagos sa laman at sa damdamin,
Pagdaramdam ko’y di mo mababatid,
Sasaluhing pilit iyong mga hagupit.
Wala ngang katulad taglay mong ganda,
Pangako mong kaligayahan at saya
Sadyang tunay di mahahanap sa iba
Dala man nito’y hapding rurok kakaiba.
Bigyang liwanag aking mga mata
Sa tunay na pagsintang
Ikaw lang ang may dala
Pikit matang aakapin
Yaong taglay na mga tinik
Batid ng aking kaluluwa,
Kung masugpungang tunay
Hatid mo’y walang hanggang ligaya.
O Pag Ibig, sadyang puno ka ng Hiwaga
Mga kaway mo’y tila liwanag ng buwan
Tanglaw sa mundong sakal ng dilim,
Manapat bigyang laya yaring aking puso
Bilanggo ng mga takot at pangamba,
Ipagkaloob mong tunay payapang tibok
Puspusing luwalhati ang kanyang himig
Sisinghap singhap, basag.
Ng mga pangakong abot sukdulan,
Damhin mo sa Gitna ng bawat sigalot
At pag aalimpuyong kasukalan
Ang mga pagsintang payak at bayad.
Ang mga luha ko’y tutulo para sa iyo,
Puso ko’y tatagusan ng patay na dugo,
Puspos man ng pighati at dusta
Aawit pa rin ng isang tunay na pagsinta.
Bigyan kirot mo man ang mga dalangin,
Tagos sa laman at sa damdamin,
Pagdaramdam ko’y di mo mababatid,
Sasaluhing pilit iyong mga hagupit.
Wala ngang katulad taglay mong ganda,
Pangako mong kaligayahan at saya
Sadyang tunay di mahahanap sa iba
Dala man nito’y hapding rurok kakaiba.
Bigyang liwanag aking mga mata
Sa tunay na pagsintang
Ikaw lang ang may dala
Pikit matang aakapin
Yaong taglay na mga tinik
Batid ng aking kaluluwa,
Kung masugpungang tunay
Hatid mo’y walang hanggang ligaya.
O Pag Ibig, sadyang puno ka ng Hiwaga
Mga kaway mo’y tila liwanag ng buwan
Tanglaw sa mundong sakal ng dilim,
Manapat bigyang laya yaring aking puso
Bilanggo ng mga takot at pangamba,
Ipagkaloob mong tunay payapang tibok
Puspusing luwalhati ang kanyang himig
Sisinghap singhap, basag.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
My Baby's Warning
This blog came from my baby luv yah baby!
WARNING!
Ang blog na 'to ay para sa mga taong pinagdasal ko na sana di na pinanganak sa mundo....
Sa mga Players,2 timers,sa mga walang magawa at sa malilibog, sa mga ambisyoso.....
BABALA!
June 12, marks my 3 month with khalel..masaya ako dahil sa tagal ng paghahanap ko eh nakita ko din sya, ang pinaniniwalaan kong itinakda para sakin.Masaya ako at alam kong masaya din sya. LATELY, exhausted kami pareho sa away dahil sa mag punyetang nagbabalak sirain kami.Kaya kung gusto nyo pa masilayan ang ganda ng Pagsikat ng araw,ma-celebrate ang b-day,xmas o new year, wag nyo balakin o isipin na sirain kami dahil sinisiguro ko sa inyo kahit sa impyerno susundan ko kayo. At sa mga taong walang magawa kundi mamuna ng kaibahan ng iba.... (pangit! makinig ka! alam mo kung sino ka!) kakaiba kang hayop sa balat ng lupa! Im not insecure or what,call me selfish! makitid pag-iisip or a bitch! well I AM! so dont try to block my way or mess up with me or else manghihiram KA ng mukha sa tipaklong! Hope i made myself clear as crystal clear here. stupido!
Ang blog na 'to ay para sa mga taong pinagdasal ko na sana di na pinanganak sa mundo....
Sa mga Players,2 timers,sa mga walang magawa at sa malilibog, sa mga ambisyoso.....
BABALA!
June 12, marks my 3 month with khalel..masaya ako dahil sa tagal ng paghahanap ko eh nakita ko din sya, ang pinaniniwalaan kong itinakda para sakin.Masaya ako at alam kong masaya din sya. LATELY, exhausted kami pareho sa away dahil sa mag punyetang nagbabalak sirain kami.Kaya kung gusto nyo pa masilayan ang ganda ng Pagsikat ng araw,ma-celebrate ang b-day,xmas o new year, wag nyo balakin o isipin na sirain kami dahil sinisiguro ko sa inyo kahit sa impyerno susundan ko kayo. At sa mga taong walang magawa kundi mamuna ng kaibahan ng iba.... (pangit! makinig ka! alam mo kung sino ka!) kakaiba kang hayop sa balat ng lupa! Im not insecure or what,call me selfish! makitid pag-iisip or a bitch! well I AM! so dont try to block my way or mess up with me or else manghihiram KA ng mukha sa tipaklong! Hope i made myself clear as crystal clear here. stupido!
Monday, May 29, 2006
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