A Vision of Death

All of the sudden I feel I am stranded on a limbo. I feel there is so much going inside me and that I cant figure out how can I escape from the war growing within the houses in me. All of the sudden I seems to be not the same undaunted person I used to be. I feel weak every each passing day, like a vampire that haven’t quench his thirst for blood for days seemingly wanting yet depriving himself of the fresh kill to touch his lips.

ABSURD.

Absurdity have engulf me into a vortex of sheer insanity. Truly a manifestation of the war of the houses within me are growing. The unvisited are shouting, screaming, demanding for more.

ESCAPE.

How many times have He tried to escape the vicious swamp I have put him into but the dubious bars have kept him captive.

ILLUSIONS.

I have deluded myself for so long in fairytale and illusions that I will be save by a mantric thought. For century I have believe in a power so divine will save me amidst the mire.

TRAPPED.

He is becoming more restless. Demanding for freedom. Rebellion was in his faculty. Waiting for that moment to surge from the quiescent oblivion that kept him powerless.

DESPAIR.

Each drop is like gasoline. Feeding him with His collection of strength. Fueling him for his anticipated surge.

DEATH.

In my death, He will live.

Drowned

I close my eyes,
take a deep breath.
Then just dive in.

The water is warm,
but my blood runs cold.

Thought of you fill my head with so much shame.
The water is shallow but i almost drown,
im scammbling for air.

I take a look around,
everything is blurry.
My heart bounds and my head aches.

why did you leave me like this?

Pain fills my soul.
I take one last breath and let myself drown.

Down at the bottom I feel no more pain.
Down at the bottom my thoughts all die, my mind is still.

No more missing you,
no more tears will fill these eyes.

This is my hell,
you are my temptation.
I slowly die.


Close the door and never let it open,
for i will no longer be on the other side.

My heart is forever dead.
My love is forever gone.

Silence fills the room,
and the darkness clouds my mind.
I fall into my hell.
No ones there to catch me.
Goodbye to those who loved me,
i am no longer me.

i lost myself in that pool.
as i drowned. im never going back.
A broken heart and a shattered soul.

kisses ill miss,
hugs ill never forget.
i loved you dear.

the darkness is over powering,
i turn that way, for there is no more light.

i wish you would hold me and never let go.
so i say again goodbye.
i loved you dear.
my the pain was to much.
take my hand and let me live.
or let go and let me drowned.

Simple Truth

"Love Me, Hate Me, Free Me!"

It’s already hard enough not to believe you...
It’s already hard enough trying not to care about you...
It’s hard enough not to want to live in the crystal eyes you possess...
It’s hard enough not to want to fly with your wings made out fo ice...

It’s easy to understand that you wont come back to me...
It’s easy to understand that you wont give into me...
It’s simple enough to understand that there isn’t enough of you to give...
It’s simple enough to understand that those eyes are so sad rain runs down in your heart...

Why wont you come to me?
Why wont you fall into my arms?
Why is my love for you taboo?
Why is the crimson that I lose not enough?

Oh, sweet child that, looking into the dark night, wanders...
Oh, sweet lover that, lost in their mind dies...
Oh, sweet mother that, sees nothing but that which cannot be spoken of...
Oh, sweet father that, loves his daughter only as much as shallowness of his heart...

I love you, that gives me wings...
I hate you, that gives me joy...
I woo you, that gives me despair...
I kill you, that gives me freedom...

Drug that infects my mind, it takes a hold and wont let go,

like a babe clinging to its mothers breast...
Sorrow that infects my soul,

it burns so much the scar wont heal, like winter frost on a summer rose...
Love that infects my life, it’s so alive it wont go away,

like an ocean pouring on a fire...
You that infects my heart, not letting my choose my own path,

like a light that only goes in one direction...

Hold me...
Love me...
Let go of me...
Free me...

__________

The Photo: A Self Portrait.

Quote for the Day

Who among you is wise and understanding?

Let him show by his good behavior his deeds in the gentleness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition, do not lie against the truth.

This wisdom is not that which comes down from Above, but is earthly, natural, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing.

But the wisdom from Above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.

And the seed whose fruit is righteousness, is sown in peace, by those who make peace.

(James 4:13-18)

*Thanks DA, you made my day.

Happy Monday Guys!

Love Is My Right

..saw these over the net and I cant resist posting them here...

Free Me

Lift me up and let me soar
On these wings of broken promises
let me leave your hollow soul behind
and let you rot for all eternity
lift me up and let me fly
on my wings of your broken promises
i was fragile and now im broken
yet you've cared nonetheless
now i must leave you and your carelessness
for my tears have fallen for far too long
so lift me up and let me soar
my life i have taken back
from these broken promies and little lies
they all hurt just the same
so lift me up and let me soar
i want to fly and be no longer tame
i want to fly on the wings you gave me
wings made of madness and sadness and everything you've done
so hear this now before we part, our paths lead different ways
so now ive gone on my wings of hate and know this simple rhyme
"For everything you've done, I've left and now I've won!"
I hope this rings in your head, so your always remember
this man you hurt has hurt you back and burned you to the kinder!

The G* Spot Finalist: November 2007

Technically, this list of finalist is delayed by five days. Well the reviewers do have the right also to take their vacations too you know. c",)

So whether the five days delay will affect the outcome at the end of the month, we can only know that after twenty five days...

The Finalist for the G* Spot Weblog for the month orf November 2007 are:

• Simply Manila
• Male and Beautiful
• Beauty and the Bum
• Gibbs Cadiz
• Mr Manager
• The Geeky Guide
• Billcoy's Blasted Brain
• Can't You Read
• Desert 69
• Lows, Highs, and Alibis V 3.0

To the Finalist, Congratulations! May the Best Blog Win!

Buttons Up

These are overdue buttons... To Shaney and Daniel, please do accept my apologies for its delay.... Anyway, here it is:

Now for the October 2007 winner.

I often visit this blog not only because of its sensual and emotive photos but also because of beautiful writings that most of the times serves as the voice of its digital photography.

Asian Xhibit of Kit has serve as a continous inspiration not to mention the thirst quencher for this author's personal cravings for beautiful photography. Truly beautiful within its own right.

So to Kit, Congratulations Man! You well deserve this One! Kudos!

For you guys to have a better feel of what i talking about, please spend some time and take a dip at Kit's Asian Xhibit.